Guilt

So, as you all are probably aware, my new favoritest thing to do is MamaKat's Writers Workshop on Thursdays.  It takes all the hard work out of blogging!  She actually TELLS us what to write about!  Now if I could make her narrow it down to 1 instead of 5 optional prompts, that would be even better.

Today, I have chosen to write on:  What are you feeling guilty about?

I mean, c'mon people.  This one is great.  The better questions would be, What AREN'T I feeling guilty about?

After I had the Bug, my anxiety/depression multiplied.  Much of this had to do with the inpending doom that I would soon have to, GASP, return to work and leave my poor, helpless little baby in the hands of Who The Hell Knows.  So, I took a visit to my doc and laid out my problems.  Between sobs and snot-runs, I asked if she could please give me something to make me not feel guilty anymore.  She smiled and gave me the best advice I have ever had.

"Betty, you know, when they yank the placenta out, it leaves a big hole.  Somethings gotta fill it.  This is where the guilt sets in.  We learn to live with it."

That makes SO MUCH SENSE!  So, I left with double the prozac dose and a whole new outlook on life.  Instead of wallowing in my guilt, I would embrace it!  I am really loving top 10 lists lately, because it makes me shut up at a pre-determined point.  So, here you have it:

Top Ten Things I Feel Guilty About
(at any given moment in time, these could change...or go away completely...I'm kinda a schitzo)

10. Stealing all the milk bottles from Winder Dairy
9.   Lying in bed for up to an hour while my kid is clearly awake
8.   All 3 bathrooms are dirty, and all 3 bathroom garbages are liner-free, so all the gook sticks to the sides and I never clean it off.
7.   I  have a glass in my dishwasher that has been there for 4 months.  It won't get clean.  And I refuse to wash it by hand.
6.   Hiding in the bathroom at work for 45 minutes yesterday so I wouldn't have to deal with a certain student.
5.   Leaving my toddler to go to work today.
4.   Enjoying my job and adult time away from home.
3.   Telling my World Civ professor that I had mono so she would let me make up all the work I missed for 5 weeks, when I was actually just sitting in the commons reading Jane Eyre...yes, this was like 7 years ago, and yes, I still have guilt.
2.   Eating 2 pieces of another instructor's birthday cake tonight.

And the number 1 thing I feel really guilty about right now is....

1.  I am going back for a third piece right now.